Actual Thoughts

Feeling: Like actually blogging for once
Listening To: Shameless by All Time Low

I was thinking that lately, all I've been posting are memes. And I been feeling bad about that. After all, people don't really come here to see the first five pages full of memes or whatever, am I right? Personally, I love doing memes and reading them, but not everybody is as insane as I am.

Alright, so, Halloween is coming up soon. I won't be gorging myself on candy or going out trick-or-treating, as I'm too old for that supposedly, but I will be dressing up. I'm going to go as a Twilight vampire - whichever one I can put together a costume close enough to look like them. xD It won't be that good, but it's fun for me nonetheless. I could always just go as a regular vampire? I don't have any money for special Twi contacts and I don't know if I'm going to get a wig or not. I could always go as Jane...but with hazel eyes. xD Hopefully, no one will notice, since it'll be dark and whatnot. I'll be spouting Twilight quotes at people all night, if I'm a Twi-vamp or not. xD

I'm currently in an epic fail state of writer's block. It's been here for about...2 or 3 weeks and it's about to drive me insane. I mean, I wrote a page or so of my latest book, but it's going to eat me from the inside out of I don't get to the 10,000 words mark soon. I mean, I have all these ideas for later on in the series, but none for now. Under the wise advice of Flash, who basically told me to just wait it out, I have ignored her. xD And I also ignored my parents, who suggested I focus on my drawing (Which I am very fail at) and getting better at that, not even thinking about the writing and maybe it'll come to me. Who knows? They could be right. They are parents, after all. They tend to do that.

Listening To: Buy U A Drank by Nickasaur!

I've officially decided to try out for drama at my church. Basically, you just show up and they go with whoever is there for the skit. I assume you actually have to act though, and as we all know, I can't talk to people that well. xD Much less get up in front of them and burst out into character. I'm hoping that I'll be able to muster up all my skills (Because, according to several people, two things that actresses must be: 1)Good and 2)Over-dramatic).

I'll end up chickening out, I'm sure, and running to hide behind some curtains or something.

Listening To: True Love by Said the Shark

Alright, so, let's see...what stuff have I gotten lately...(I always used to update my blog when I got stuff. Now I just kind of mosey about xD)...I got some clothes, some leggings, some pajamas, a new purple and black scarf, etc. I got some cool stuff from my aunt which she's never worn. xDD And she's the type of aunt who wears all the stuff the "young" people wear and is all hip and whatnot. Not wannabe hip, but actual hip.

She also gave me some Bath & Body Works lotions she's never used. 8D Vanilla Brown Sugar, Moonlit Path, and Twilight Woods (TWILIGHT HOMG 8D I'm pining for the New Moon premiere). Mom bought me some Orange Blossom lotion...it's brand is, like, The Naked Bee or something. Smells really nice. She also bought me the ChapStick of the same flavor, and the same brand.

I got some Blueberry Cobbler votive candles and the thing to set them down in, and some scented rocks to go in it, too. 8D It's very pretty looking and it makes my room smell like what I always imagined a grandma's kitchen would smell like.

Listening To: Audacity of huge by Simian Mobile Disco (>w> I'm on Flash's playlist on her blog. The song keeps messing up)

Alright, so...anything else? I don't really think so. I've almost got my Christmas List for my parents compiled, though, which includes the new iPod Nano (In smexy green) and a DSi. 8D I'm getting excited already.

I guess I shall end this blogpost, and post more later, but...

FIRST I HAVE TO TELL YOU ABOUT CONNER OMGWTF.

He is the boy at my church that I have my eye on. He's really cute and funny and outgoing. He has nice hair. He said hi to me one day. *w* I really like him. There was this game that involved Blow Pop suckers, and I asked my friend to give my suckers to him for me. I'm hoping he gets the hint that, "HEY I LIKE YOU." xD I'm just afraid him and his best friend, who happens to be a female, like each other/are a couple. I would never move in on another girl's man unless I didn't know it, and if I did know it, I'd stay far and clear away.

So...I guess that's finally it. xD

I Have...

Bought everyone in the bar a drink
Swam with wild dolphins
Climbed a mountain
Taken a Ferrari for a test drive
Been inside the Great Pyramid
Held a tarantula
Taken a candlelit bath with someone
Said "I love you" and meant it
Hugged a tree
Bungee jumped
Visited Paris
Watched a lightning storm at sea - from the shore
Stayed up all night long and saw the sun rise
Seen the Northern Lights
Gone to a huge sports game
Walked the stairs to the top of the leaning Tower of Pisa
Grown and eaten your own vegetables
Touched an iceberg
Slept under the stars
Changed a baby's diaper
Taken a trip in a hot air balloon
Watched a meteor shower
Gotten drunk on champagne
Given more than you can afford to charity
Looked up at the night sky through a telescope
Had an uncontrollable giggling fit at the worst possible moment
Had a food fight
Bet on a winning horse
Asked out a stranger
Had a snowball fight
Screamed as loudly as you possibly can
Held a lamb
Seen a total eclipse
Ridden a roller coaster
Hit a home run
Danced like a fool and not cared who was looking
Adopted an accent for an entire day
Actually felt happy about your life, even for just a moment
Had two hard drives for your computer
Visited all 50 states
Taken care of someone who was drunk
Had amazing friends
Danced with a stranger in a foreign country
Watched wild whales
Stolen a sign
Backpacked in Europe
Taken a road-trip
Gone rock climbing
Midnight walk on the beach
Gone sky diving
Visited Ireland
Been heartbroken longer than you were actually in love
In a restaurant, sat at a stranger's table and had a meal with them
Visited Japan
Milked a cow
Alphabetized your CDs
Pretended to be a superhero
Sung karaoke (Privately)
Lounged around in bed all day
Played touch football
Gone scuba diving
Kissed in the rain
Played in the mud
Played in the rain
Gone to a drive-in theater
Visited the Great Wall of China
Started a business
Fallen in love and not had your heart broken
Toured ancient sites
Taken a martial arts class
Played D&D for more than 6 hours straight
Gotten married
Been in a movie
Crashed a party
Gotten divorced
Gone without food for 5 days
Made cookies from scratch
Won first prize in a costume contest
Ridden a gondola in Venice
Gotten a tattoo
Rafted the Snake River
Been on television news programs as an "expert"
Got flowers for no reason
Performed on stage
Been to Las Vegas
Recorded music
Eaten shark
Kissed on the first date
Gone to Thailand
Bought a house
Been in a combat zone
Buried one/both of your parents
Been on a cruise ship
Spoken more than one language fluently well enough to have a decent conversation
Performed in Rocky Horror
Raised children
Followed your favourite band/singer on tour
Started your own wiki
Taken an exotic bicycle tour in a foreign country
Picked up and moved to another city to just start over
Walked the Golden Gate Bridge
Sang loudly in the car, and didn't stop when you knew someone was looking
Had plastic surgery
Survived an accident that you shouldn't have survived
Wrote articles for a large publication
Lost over 100 pounds
Held someone while they were having a flashback
Piloted an airplane
Touched a stingray
Broken someone's heart
Helped an animal give birth
Won money on a T.V. game show
Broken a bone
Gone on an African photo safari
Had a facial part pierced other than your ears
Fired a rifle, shotgun, or pistol
Eaten mushrooms that were gathered in the wild
Ridden a horse
Had major surgery
Had a snake as a pet
Hiked to the bottom of the Grand Canyon
Slept for more than 30 hours over the course of 48 hours
Visited more foreign countries than U.S. states
Visited all 7 continents
Taken a canoe trip that lasted more than 2 days
Eaten kangaroo meat
Eaten sushi
Had your picture in the newspaper
Changed someone's mind about something you care deeply about
Gone back to school
Parasailed
Touched a cockroach
Eaten fried green tomatoes
Read The Iliad
Selected one "important" author who you missed in school, and read
Killed and prepared an animal for eating
Skipped all your school reunions
Communicated with someone without sharing a common spoken language
Been elected to public office
Written your own computer language
Thought to yourself that you're living your dream
Had to put someone you love into hospice care
Built your own PC from parts
Sold your own artwork to someone who didn't know you
Had a booth at a street fair
Dyed your hair
Been a DJ
Shaved your head
Caused a car accident
Saved someone's life

I am a cuddler. I am a morning person. I am a perfectionist. I am a night person. I am an only child (Technically). I am Catholic. I am currently in my pajamas. I am currently suffering from a broken heart. I am okay at styling other people’s hair. I am left handed. I am addicted to my myspace. I am very shy around the opposite gender. I bite my nails. I can be paranoid at times. I currently regret something that I have said. When I get mad I curse frequently. I like someone. I enjoy jazz music. I enjoy smoothies. I enjoy talking on the phone. I have a pet. I have a secret that I am ashamed to reveal. I have a tendency to fall for the wrong person. I have all my grandparents (I think o3o). I have at least one sibling. I have been told that I am smart. I have broken a bone. I have Caller I.D. on my phone. I have bathed/showered with someone. I have changed a diaper. I have changed a lot over the past year. I have friends who have never seen my natural hair. I have had surgery. I have killed another person. I have had my hair cut within the last week. I have had the cops called on me. I have kissed someone I knew I shouldn’t have. I have held hands with someone who wasn’t my boyfriend/girlfriend. I have loved someone. I have danced around naked.

How Well Do I know Flash?

How Well Do You Know Your Best Friend? Created by dandelionandburdock and taken 3655 times on Bzoink
Basics
what is your best friend's full name?:	Rasa Leela Gava
where was he/she born?:	...Europe 8D
where does he/she currently live?:	Latvia, Europe
who does he/she live with?:	'The Neighbors'
how many pets do they have?:	...Four?
what are the names of all of their pets?:	*Flail*
how many vehicles does their family own?:	Let's say one 8D
when is his/her birthday?:	September 5th.
what colour are his/her eyes?:	Blue-green-gray
what colour is his/her hair?:	Brown
how tall is your best friend?:	5'6 I think
how old is he/she?:	14
how many bedrooms is in their house?:	*Squints* Two or three?
About Your Relationship
how well do you think you know your best friend, from 0 to 10?:	8 or 9
what's the best moment you've had with him/her?:	Too many to count D8 Maybe when we first discovered Buy U a DRAAANK. xD
when did you meet?:	On Rescreatu.
how long have you known him/her?:	About a year.
how long have you been best friends with him/her?:	6-9 months?
how much time do you spend with him/her weekly?:	We talk every other day. xD
do you have a song that reminds you of your best friend?:	*nodnod* Six Feet Under the Stars by All Time Low reminds me of her, partly. And Fireflies by Owl City. o3o
do you keep secrets from each other?:	Notrly. I mean, I don't say my age and stuff, but she's fine with it.
can you be completely honest with him/her?:	Oh, yus.
Their Life
what was your best friend's happiest moment?:	When she met me? xDD I don't really know.
what was your best friend's saddest moment?:	She knows. :<
what job does he/she have?:	Student.
is your best friend married, or does he/she want to be?:	No she doesn't and isn't.
Does your best friend have children, or does he/she want them?:	No, and no. xD
what vehicle does your best friend have?:	She doesn't drive. She's too young.
what is their house like?:	I assume very nice. :3
Dreams
what does he/she most want to do for a job?:	Artist.
where would he/she most like to visit in the world?:	America, my state, my house....xDD
what is their dream car?:	Errr...BMW? o3o
what do they most want in the world?:	Be an artist, I think.
if you could give your best friend anything in the world, what would it be?:	A plane ticket to America.
Their Interests, Hobbies, Likes and Dislikes
what is their favourite food?:	Um...rice 8D? I don't think she cares all that much about food.
what is his/her favourite colour?:	Bright mindblinding green
what is his/her favourite animal?:	Wolf?
what is his/her celebrity crush?:	She has none, because she's so above all of us 8D
what is their favourite way to spend a day?:	Talking to me. xD
name a few things your best friends dislikes.:	N00bs, the roleplay board on Res going to pieces, politics
what is/was their favourite school subject?:	Erm...Art class?
what is his/her favourite TV programme?:	Anything anime o; Spice and Wolf, Soul Eater, Death Note, I guess stuff like that
what is his/her favourite movie?:	Oh geez...um...she doesn't talk about movies a lot. But probably something scary.
what is his/her favourite music?:	She likes all sorts of things, like techno, screamo, more alternative stuff. Jrock too I think.
name one of your best friend's favourite musical artists.:	Trapt.
name one of your best friend's favourite songs.:	Fireflies by Owl City
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Voice meme

xD Only I could find something like this.

I did a voice meme.

http://tinypic.com/player.php?v=149mmfn&s=4

OMGWTF I SAID 'MEME' WRONG D8

10 FACTS

1. I'm an independant, politically speaking, but democrats are usually the ones frustrating me.
2. I'm closer friends with my online best friend than my real one.
3. I love Sarah Dessen books. She's probably my favorite authoress.
4. My favorite pug is Bella. I'm her favorite human, too.
5. I've wanted to be a writer for almost five years.
6. My laptop's name is Pinku, which is "pink" in Japanese.
7. I like to say "smexy." I wasn't allowed to say "sexy" when I was really little, so I said smexy and stuck with it.
8. L Lawliet is my current favorite anime guy.
9. Everyone says I have really nice hair.
10. I had to wear glasses when I was young.

meme. <3 Becase that's all I post anymore.

1.ONE OF YOUR SCARS, HOW DID YOU GET IT?
Through my left eyebrow. Hit my head on a banister when I was little. OMFG I'M DEFORMED

2. WHAT IS ON THE WALLS IN YOUR ROOM?
Jonas posters galore, some Twilight stuff, a poster I need to take down, Mardi Gras dogs poster, and a bunch of super small posters above my desk of some bands and Jrockers and stuff.

3. WHAT DOES YOUR CELL PHONE LOOK LIKE?
Purple and black Motorola Rival.

4. WHAT MUSIC DO YOU LIKE TO LISTEN TO?
Just about everything except country.


5. DO YOU KNOW WHAT TIME YOU WERE BORN?
No.


6. WHAT DO YOU WANT MORE THAN ANYTHING RIGHT NOW?
To be a writer.

7. WHAT DO YOU MISS?
Flash.

8. WHAT IS YOUR MOST PRIZED POSSESSION?
My laptop, Pinku.


9. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE SMELL?
Vanilla.~ Or fresh-baked sweets.


10. DO YOU GET CLAUSTROPHOBIC?
Sometimes.

11. DO YOU GET SCARED OF THE DARK?
No.


13. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE COLOGNE / PERFUME?
Victoria Secret Pink Fresh & Clean. It's more of a body spray.

14. WHAT KIND OF HAIR DO YOU LIKE ON SOMEONE YOU ARE ATTRACTED TO?
xD I like my guys with long hair.

15. WHERE CAN YOU SEE YOURSELF BEING PROPOSED TO AT?
xD Online. Somehow, I can really, actually see someone doing that.


16. COFFEE OR ENERGY DRINKS?
Coffee. Fancily flavored.

17. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE PIZZA TOPPING?
Sausage.


18. IF YOU COULD EAT ANYTHING RIGHT NOW, WHAT WOULD IT BE?
Chinese food from my favorite place down the street.


19. WHO IS THE LAST PERSON YOU MADE MAD?
I make everyone mad. 8D My mom, I think.


20. DO YOU SPEAK A FOREIGN LANGUAGE?
The tiniest bit of Japanese.

21. WHAT WAS THE FIRST GIFT SOMEONE EVER GAVE YOU (OF THE OPPOSITE SEX):
Hmm...I don't know. A rusty shower curtain ring the dude found on the ground? xD

22. DO YOU LIKE ANYBODY?
Yus.

23. ARE YOU DOUBLE JOINTED?
In mah fingers.

24. FAVORITE CLOTHING BRAND?
Aeropostale/American Eagle/Hot Topic.

25. WHAT`S YOUR DREAM CAR?
Mercedes Benz/Beetle Bug.

27. WHAT IS ONE OF YOUR DREAMS?
To be a writer. ;D


29. WHAT IS THE BEST WAY TO TELL SOMEONE HOW MUCH THEY MEAN TO YOU?
To tell them that you love them is the ultimate way.

30. SAY A NUMBER FROM ONE TO A HUNDRED:
300. THIS. IS. SPARTA!

31. BLONDES OR BRUNETTES?
Blonde, because I am one. xD On guys, probably brunette.

32. WHAT IS THE ONE NUMBER YOU CALL MOST OFTEN?
My best friend.

33. WHAT ANNOYS YOU MOST?
Democrats. xD

34. HAVE YOU BEEN OUT OF THE US?
No.

35. YOUR WEAKNESSES?
Sweet things. D:

36. WHERE DO YOU WANT TO LIVE?
Japan/Anywhere but here.

37. FIRST JOB?
Lawn mower.

38. EVER DONE A PRANK CALL?
Wish I had the guts too.


39. WHAT WERE YOU DOING BEFORE YOU FILLED OUT THIS SURVEY?
replying to a different one. xD

40. IF YOU COULD GET PLASTIC SURGERY WHAT WOULD IT BE?
xD I wouldn't.

41. WHY DID YOU FILL OUT THIS SURVEY?
I wanted to do a meme.


42. WHAT DO YOU GET COMPLIMENTED ABOUT MOST?
My hair.

43. WHAT WOULD YOU DO IF ALCOHOL BECAME ILLEGAL?
It wouldn't affect me.

44. WHAT DO YOU WANT FOR YOUR BIRTHDAY?
Not till Feb. 3rd. BUT anything I didn't get for Christmas.

45. HOW MANY KIDS DO YOU WANT?
None. I hate craplings! /keysmash

46. WERE YOU NAMED AFTER ANYONE?
Yes. Precisely one of the reasons I go by my middle name.


47. DO YOU WISH ON STARS?
Yeah, but I don't count on them for anything.

48. WHICH FINGER[S] IS YOUR FAVORITE?
Pointer? xD

49. WHEN DID YOU LAST CRY?
Last night.

50. DO YOU LIKE YOUR HANDWRITING?
No, it's not pretty enough. D:


51. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE LUNCH MEAT?
Honey ham.

52. ANY BAD HABITS?
Frowning constantly. That's what I'm doing beneath that bandana.


53. WHAT IS YOUR MOST EMBARRASSING CD ON THE SHELF?
Ufufufu, Britney Spears, "Circus."

54. IF YOU WERE ANOTHER PERSON, WOULD YOU BE FRIENDS WITH YOU?
Probably not. xD

55. HAVE YOU EVER TOLD A SECRET YOU SWORE NOT TO TELL?
Na.

56. DO LOOKS MATTER?
No, they don't have to. Looking good matters to me though.

57. HOW DO YOU RELEASE ANGER?
I used to do it in my diary, but I don't know what I do now. xD

58. WHERE IS YOUR SECOND HOME?
Online.

59. DO YOU TRUST OTHERS EASILY?
Yeah. Too easily.

60. WHAT WAS YOUR FAVORITE TOY AS A CHILD?
The pieces that came with all the Barbies.


61. WHAT ARE THE FIRST THREE NUMBERS IN YOUR CELL PHONE?
Abbie (Friend I don't talk to on purpose), Amber (half-sister I don't talk to), and Ariel (Other friend I just don't talk to).

62.
There's no question here~

63. DO YOU USE SARCASM?
Too much.


64. HAVE YOU EVER BEEN IN A MOSH PIT?
No.

65. WHAT DO YOU LOOK FOR IN A MAN/WOMAN?
Someone who can make me laugh but also is sensitive and doesn't have a tendency to cheat.

66. WHAT ARE YOUR NICKNAMES?
Mercedes, Bean, Kbean, Merce, Merz, etc.

68. DO YOU UN-TIE YOUR SHOES WHEN YOU TAKE THEM OFF?

No.

69. WHO IS YOUR CRUSH?
Just this smexy boy.

70. WHAT’S YOUR FAVORITE ICE CREAM FLAVOR?
Idk, something with lots of chunks of stuff in it.

71. WHEN IS THE LAST TIME YOU WENT ON A DATE?
A month or so ago?

72. WHAT ARE YOUR FAVORITE COLORS?
BRIGHT MINDBLINDING COLORS....AND PINK. 8D


73. HOW MANY WISDOM TEETH DO YOU HAVE?
I don't know.


74. WHO/WHAT DO YOU MISS MOST RIGHT NOW?
Flash. D;


75. DO YOU WANT EVERYONE TO ANSWER THESE QUESTIONS?
Go have fun.

76. WHAT ARE YOU LISTENING TO RIGHT NOW?
Buy You a Drank by Nickasaur!. xD


77. LAST THING YOU ATE?
Penn Station sammich.


78. LAST PERSON YOU TALKED TO ON THE PHONE?
Mother.

79. THE FIRST THING YOU NOTICE ABOUT A MAN/WOMAN?
Eyes/hair.


80. FAVORITE THOUGHT PROVOKING SONG?
Remembering Sunday by All Time Low feat. Julia Simms (Thought-provoking?).

81. FAVORITE THING TO HATE:
xD Well....

82. FAVORITE DRINK?
Fancy flavored coffee, but it's so rare.

83. FAVORITE ZODIAC SIGN:
Aquarius.

84. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE SPORT?
Bike riding?

85. HAIR COLOR?
Blonde, because I am one, but probably black on other people?


86. EYE COLOR?
Blue.


87. DO YOU WEAR GLASSES?
No.

88. SIBLINGS?
Half-brother and half-sister.


89. FAVORITE MONTH?
FEBRUARY.


90. YOU LIKE SUSHI?
Yus. Darn, now you made me want some. D:

91. LAST THING YOU WATCHED?
Castle.


92. FAVORITE DAY OF THE YEAR?
Christmas. 8D

93. ARE YOU TOO SHY TO ASK SOMEONE OUT?
Yes.

94. SUMMER OR WINTER?
Winter.


95. KISSES OR HUGS?
Kiss.

96. RELATIONSHIPS OR ONE NIGHT STANDS?
Relationship.

97. WHO IS THE MOST LIKELY TO ANSWER THESE QUESTIONS?
Flash. ;D

98. WHO IS THE LEAST LIKELY TO ANSWER THESE QUESTIONS?
Everyone else.

99. WHAT BOOKS ARE YOU READING?
The Truth About Forever by Sarah Dessen, Nightmares and Dreamscapes by Stephen King, Twilight by Stephenie Meyer (re-read), Footfree and Fancyloose by Elizabeth Craft and Sarah Fain, The Light of Eidon by Karen Hancock, and The Amber Spyglass by Phillip Pullman. xD But the main is the Dessen one.


100. IS ANYONE IN LOVE WITH YOU?
Err...my friends? xDD